Weather: cold & rainy
Mood: poopy but better than before thanks to my breakfast sandwich
Man...... this past week has been a week of
emotions and dramas.
It was that time of the month for me to get emotional once again... and this time it was worse. Cramping like a crazy person. Medication didn't help much.
Family issues:
Mom decided to call me and let me know how bad my brother's car is scratched up by his careless habits. Also, dad decided to kick my brother out of the house for the wrong reasons. I wonder what dad would do if he found out what bro has been *doing doing*. Mom is the one who has been hiding all my brother's wrong doing behind my dad's back. She said it was for our family's own good........ it is true in a way but.. not fully. I am just afraid one day, dad will found out everything and his dream of having a smart son will be crushed... he will definitely go crazy. He is
senile already.......
Mom decided to compare me to him once again and said how I use to act like that in college........ which is not true.... but there isn't any point to argue with her...it's not like she'll listen or agree with me. I will never be as good as my brother
just because I am a girl.
Sometime, I really hate the way my parents teach us. They do not know how to parent..... maybe that's why they sent us away to Taiwan for the 1st 10 years of my life/5 years of my brother's just to push the responsibilities away. Childhood is the most important part of a person. It's where we build our personality based off of.
Work issues:
There's this person at work I am getting very impatient with. I did let the
inappropriate concert incident go but damn......... now other things are bothering me about this person. Constantly coming over to my desk and try to make dumb conversations.... making dumb comments about everything....being nosy about everyone.....during meetings, kept on starting at me and try to make eye contact.... you would think someone that age would know better everything and act more mature but no..... All I can do now is ignore and think positive. At least I'm not related or else my life would be a big fail like his.
At the end of the day, I kept my feelings in and vent to Supie and GWJers online =)
Social/Gaming world:
This might sound sad..... which probably sound sad. I've realized how different me and my girlfriends are. All they cared about the way they look, how other guys think of them...... spending endless money on cosmetics & fashion when they care be seriously looking for a boyfriend to be with for the rest of their life. but instead, they are going to clubs.............. another gf is getting married next year.... all she ever cared about was money... she always cancel our get together her fiance would intercept and change her plans for her. Maybe I need new friends. I enjoy hanging out w/my guy friends a lot more just because they can relate to me and we like similar things. I think I was meant to be a dude this life........ def not a girl. I feel so out of my gender group. *sigh*
On the other hand, I've found many close friends who I chat with every single day at work and after work from
GWJ. I really wish I know these guys in real life.......... now I know how some of these people get so attached to internet friendships. No matter how bad my day was, I come home and sign on to Steam...... play a few games..... my mood change immediately! There are also one of those rare days when ass holes i played with pisses me off and ruin my night. There are always good and bad things.
Exciting things to look forward to:
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Hockey games everyday! =) I love GO CAPS!
-Going home to see my
puppies tomorrow. I hope Noodles gets better soon. He ate something bad...... once again
-
Canada in just a few days!!! Leaving on Tuesday night! EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!
5 days
These are silly
