Thanksgiving....... holiday season

It is nice to have everyone gathered again at home. It's been a long time since we spend time like this as a family; however, it doesn't mean we are enjoying it.

Second year in college, he changed so much. Started college as a nerdy boy and now he is a druggie, high ego, ignorant fraternity boy.... saddest thing ever but then again, he did prove my point. You maybe the top three graduate from high school, that doesn't mean anything. Look what he has turned in to. I also have to say though.... he is the way he is now partly because of my parents. They spoil him so much when he was younger and now it's a bit too late..... then again... my parents never raised us. Ha......... I hope he'll turn out to be ok.... but I really doubt it. He is a stranger to me now...

I don't understand why most of the Asian families are so complicated. I really really wish I'm white a lot of the times. A big happy gathering for Thanksgiving and Christmas is all I wanted but instead....... yelling and nagging...... this family is so broken... in so many ways long long time ago.... broken when my dad got depression... my mom has been trying to make him better for years now but it doesn't seem to be working. He refuses to see doctors.........

Life is changing... lots of challenges for me to face once again but I am def ready for it. I really don't know how things are going to end up but I'm sure ......

things happen for a reason. When a door closes, a window opens up.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending" - Maria Robinson

Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone. =)

Weekend trip w/the boys & Yumi

Here's a happie update.

Going home to my parents today after work. Going to work on some marketing materials for one of my side jobs at Richmond while I'm there so I can get paid! =P

I know I'm going to get yelled at by my dad about my lip stitches.... he loves to piss people off when he gets the chance to.... not looking forward to it. =x

I Googled vet technician's avg salary....... it's actually really low.... but it's not going to stop me from working on my degree though. =) I can always figure something cool out with a vet tech & business.

Exciting things to look forward to!!! :
- hiking this weekend w/the boys & my pups~ pictures coming soon!
- thanksgiving next week.......lots of yummy turkey =D
- stuff...... will reveal later
- booking my trip to Seattle/Vancouver this week! I will be there from 1/25 -> 2/3
- buying Canucks jerseys for myself and David's x'mas present!

I gotta figure out who I'm sending x'mas cards to........

Stuff I want for x'mas..........


http://www.kidrobot.com/Toys/DesignerToys/DomoQee7InchSkeletonEdition.html


http://www.kidrobot.com/HolidayExclusives/IHeartDonutsHolidayPack.html


ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

David put this together for me as a gift. =) Now it's sitting on my desk here at work.

HOCKEY NIGHT!!!!

CANUCKS vs penguines

CAPTIALS vs sabres

@7pm

Thinking block

Just registered and confirmed my spring classes last night. =)

I'm only taking 6 credits which these will complete my general education part for the A.A.S. Degree.

Online Chem 101 & math for Allied Health

It feels good to know I am working on my goal in life! It's going to take me a yr or two to finish this degree and it all depends on what classes they will be offering during the summer.

These are mostly online classes!

Summer 2011
SDV 101 Orientation to Vet. Technology - 1
VET 105 Intro to Vet Technology - 3
VET 111 Anat./Phys. of Domestic Animals - 4

Fall 2011
VET 116 Animal Breeds & Behavior - 3
VET 211 Animal Diseases I - 2
VET 121 Clinical Practices I - 3

Spring 2012
VET 131 Clinical Pathology I - 3
VET 135 Anesthesia of Domestic Animals - 2
VET 212 Animal Diseases II - 2
VET 290 Internship - 4

Summer 2012
VET 122 Clinical Practices II - 3
VET 132 Clinical Pathology II - 3
VET 216 Animal Pharmacology - 2
VET 221 Advanced Clinical Practices III - 4

Fall 2012
VET 133 Clinical Pathology III - 3
VET 217 Intro./Lab./Zoo/Wildlife Medicine - 2
VET 298 Seminar & Project - 2

42 credits x $123 = $5166.00

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Bartending test class is this Saturday at 9:30am.

$600 for five Saturday classes from 9 am to 5pm

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Thanksgiving next weekend! Going home for a long weekend to hang w/the family.

Me and David was thinking about going on a Vancouver trip but not anymore!! All my money are going to my school fund. =)

Vancouver will have to wait until end of January~ my bday. =)

So difficult

It's so difficult to start this all over again.............

I can't feel bad anymore.... feeling bad is just going to drag everything down and end with a sad ending that will hunt me forever.

What I need to do and want to do are totally opposite.

Wish me luck man. It's just so hard to stop thinking about it.

Hiking pix from today!

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Bartending school coming soon! =)

Gotta make life more exciting!

To you....

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. but sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."

"People say they "find" love, as if it were an object hidden by a rock. But love takes many forms, and it is never the same for any man and woman. What people find then is a certain love."

NHL Power Ranking

Hockey night last night was fun and of course... I gotta say I'm a bit disappointed at the way Canucks was playing but HEY! Can't win all the games aye! =)

Caps played well last night 5-3. Another high scoring game.

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been listening to songs.... it's sad how 90% of the loves songs that I am listening to is to me and not about me. yikes...

I made dinner tonight because.....today is.......... HOCKEY NIGHT!

Mini Chicken Pot Pies

Big Chicken Pot Pie!

Pecan pie w/ice cream!

ALL HOME MADE!! other than the pie's crust! =P

Reading + Classical music = perfect day

who would of thought I would say such a thing.........

"Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them - a mother's approval, a father's nod - are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until much later, as the skin sags and the heart weakens, that children understand; their stories, and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their mothers and fathers, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives."

"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves. "

- Five person you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom

Healing process.......

Day 1.........3 hours after the "accident"

Day 2

Another long update.

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson


“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” - Maria Robinson

Ever since I got back from Vancouver..... my emotion/mind has been hell. I really don't know how to deal with it but I know I have to one way or another. I've been ignoring this for way too long...... so long that it's been years........

I set up this Vancouver trip as a test for myself and it worked... worked way too well.
This trip was the first time in years... three years about..... I stepped out of my normal life and took a look back as a third person on everything..... work, life, family and the most important .. relationship.

This was the first time I've ever been to Canada.... and thanks god I picked Vancouver. It is the most amazing place I've ever been to....... I guess out of Taiwan, Japan, and the States. The city it self reminds me of Taipei, where I grew up and the scenery on the side is soooo amazing. I didn't know you can mix an amazing city + amazing scenery together..... the mountains are just 30 minutes bus ride away... tons of yummy food right around the corner. I can just stand by the sea and stare into the mountains everyday...... thinking about it makes me so happy. I know it rains a lot but still.. def worth living there.



Donut's life= work + relationship + family

Work: I love where I work right now. The company and the people are great. I highly doubt there are any company can beat the "relaxed" atmosphere here.

It's just thinking about the studies I did in college....... my major is Marketing Business... I was force to chose it by my parents..... and soon after I declare my major my parents decided to change their mind and start suggesting other majors like nursing, accounting.... blah blah. I just ignored and went with their first pick. I figure it's easy and broad..... After this trip, I don't know what go to me but I felt like I should try to do what I always wanted to do...... Vet technician.... I fell in love with animals freshmen year in college when I bought Yumi. I want my job to mean something to the work.... as in helping something or someone out.

I've just applied to Vet Technician program in NOVA. I hope everything will work out..... it's a 2 years program. I'm thinking about taking night classes and read my goal slowly.... lets hope everything will work out.. going to meet with the adviser on Monday evening.

Relationship: too much thoughts to share..... it's complicated..... all I can say is.. things will change.....

Family: My family has always been a bit complicated... especially comparing to my friend's family..... but we still love each at the end other no matter what. =)

Born in the States, got shipped to Taiwan when I was about 2 months old to live w/my aunt's family for some reason. Ten years later, got shipped back again to the States.... I had to re-learn everything again in a totally new atmosphere. I have to say that was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Learning new language and making friends...... life was totally different..... The most difficult part was to live with my parents for the very first time in my life... calling them mom and dad was so weird. My "mom" has always been my aunt.

Family drama started in 1996, it was when I got shipped back to the States. Lots and lots... to a point where divorce and abusive come to play (Not abusive to us as kids tho). Fights after fights..... it was very tiring and disturbing. My job at that time is to focus in school and protect my younger brother from the fights.

I started working at our family restaurant.... started cleaning tables.. then pack to gos...all the way to waiting tables and doing basically everything in the front of the house. I was at work from right after school to right before bed everyday... Monday to Sunday....365 days a year. It was painful since I was a teenage.... I wanted to go out and play like everyone else.. but I couldn't. But hey! things got better when college started.

I chose Radford University because of it's location. It was the farthest in-state college I could get in... was 3.5 hours away from home, Richmond, VA. I was so sick of working everyday and not being able to be a "normal teenager". Although I was in college and a bit far, I still ended up coming back home every other weekend to work. I felt guilty not helping my family out since they are paying for my college tuition.

First year in college, I lived in the on-campus dorms..... then the last three years I lived by myself in an apartment near by with Yumi. =) I had a few jobs here and there to keep me busy. It was fun meeting people at work and from classes. I was always the girl who "always go home"........ I guess family is just that important to me. =/

This is going to sound silly but throughout the four years in college, me and my mom chatted everyday ....... every single day.......... our conversation dimmed down after college... slowly from 4 calls a week to 4 calls a month today. Ever since my brother started college a year ago, my parents really doesn't care for me much. Does that mean I'm an adult now?! O.o

Things will change a lot in my life...... I hope they are changing for the better...... =)
Life is full of risks eh? Gotta try and seek what I want.

Vancouver trip was amazing......

Now I'm back in the states...... i feel miserable....