Vancouver II

Tuesday, January 25, 2011-

Only slept for about an hour that night. We left Northern VA around 2:30 AM that night and picked up Jeremy then headed for BWI airport. Got to the airport about 5ish and flew out at 6am. I’m not excited about this trip at all actually…… what a way to start eh?

Got to Seattle, WA a bit earlier than scheduled. Took the Quickcoach bus from SEA to Vancouver downtown. Crossing the border was a lot easier that I thought. I’m sure coming back it would be at least 10x harder.

As the bus enters downtown Vancouver, memories started coming back to me. It was both good and bad feeling. It felt like as if I was at home once again. Vancouver reminds me a bit of Taipei…

Wonder how this trip is going to turn out.. Knowing that person I want to see isn’t there really hurts. I guess that’s what I did to myself… got to suffer through the consciences…

Wednesday, January 26, 2011-

Another day of my life… it is suppose to be a special day but I felt as if I was alone than ever before. Maybe it’s because I am away from home? I really can’t tell. My imagination of what this day is like is totally opposite. I guess I am turning old… being on Facebook did made me felt a bit “wanted” because of all the birthday wish messages. But when I really think about it… I donno… I don’t know what makes me happy anymore… is happiness just a short term feeling or does it last forever?

It is just another day for me to realize how fast days are going by me…. And how little I have achieved?

Thursday, January 27, 2011-

So what now? I’m 25? …… It’s so nice looking out into the endless ocean at Stanley Park. All my worries were gone for just that few minutes… I wish those few minutes can last just a bit longer or even occurs more often... but nope. Impossible!!

It was def nice to meet up with Matt again. He def makes me smile with his silliness. Thanks for coming out so far to meet up with me!

Friday, January 28, 2011 & Saturday, January 29, 2011- nothing important... nothing at all…

Sunday, January 30, 2011-

Today is another hockey day for me. It was filled with all type of hockey games. 1:30pm was the All Star NHL game. At 6pm was Mark’s ice hockey game. At 8pm was Cory’s ball/street hockey at UBC. Today was a very eventful day. Hanging out with them make me feel as if I was in university all over again.

Today

First day home

HAPPY BDAY TO NOODLES TODAY!!!!!!!!!! I still remember the day I picked him up with Steph from Covington, VA. He grew up so much! but his brain still sucks...... hahaha act like a babie


Anyways..........random thoughts......
Looking at pictures from the past. It's amazing how much has changed.... I went from having 20 best friends done to 5......... crazy eh?

It's silly how when I get bored at work... I always ended up thinking about what happened in the past and how I go there.......... emo emo?

We gotta hold onto hope,
In this heartless world we gotta hold on to hope,
We gotta let it go,
Or it'll eat us alive we gotta let it go.
- House of Heros, So Far Away


Saturday........... Interesting night....... realized a lot of things about people... This crowd is def not my crowd but I was use to be one of them back in the days..... materialistic and cared a lot about appearances...... but I had fun overall though! There are things I was annoyed about of course.... I am not THAT nice......=P

It was nice meeting new ppl tho! =) I found a few new buddies I can hang out with. It was funny how I got along with the guys in the table more than the girls.... we talked about hockey and video games...

Highlights of the weekend........ I'M SO HAPPY MY BROTHER IS HOME!!!!!! =D It seems like things are coming back together! I'm sure my parents changed a lot after this whole family drama.... I changed a bit too!

You never know how important something is until you lost it.......sucks but... some of us just have to learn the hard way

Coming up.........
Today- PERM & Hair cut! I pray that my perm will come out better than last time! Please!!!
Friday- Canucks vs Caps game @7pm then Bar with the GWJers!!!!!! I'm so excited!
Saturday- Richmond! Going home to see my bro!
Sunday- Lunch with gwj? ..... depend on how cool they are! j/k j/k
Next Saturday- My bday dinner!

Vancouver is coming soooon....... another Vancouver trip for me! =) This is gonna be full relax for me! No drama! less partying. aye aye aye?!

TGIF!

Brother is coming home today at 230pm! yayay!!!

Hope everyone had a happy new year!

I gotta say new years is one of those really sad or really happy holidays. Having something positive to look forward to vs. nothing new is happening. It's also one of those celebration that makes single people miss their ex's. Yikes!! Everyone needs love eh? =) (I got a few drunk texts myself during that night. tsk tsk....).

2011 gives me a neutral feeling. So much had happened in my life in the last few months.... it really makes me think hard once again what I really want in life. Ugh! So much uncertainty and emotion.... tragic events really change people. It had to be one of the hardest time in my life! (I sound so dramatic!! I'm blending into the girl world! Oh no!).

Just at the end of October, I had so much ambition to improve my life and self. I wanted to do so many things... then my family went down hill.... deep down for the last month or so. It's a bit ironic that this happens during the holidays. Much of my view changed.. and what I want to do.... However, things are looking pretty positive in the coming weeks! Last week my brother got transferred to a mental institute which killed me. That is the last place I want him to be transferred to... but just last night my mom told me the doctor said if he continues to "act like he is now", he will be released by the end of this week! =D and of course once he gets out, he will be treated with therapy and medication until he is normal again. I hope these events taught my parents and my brother something...... *sigh* I felt like I'm the only adult in the family.

At the same time, my dad started his therapy yesterday! =D I heard it went well. Lets hope his stubborn self realize what he has been doing to us as a family.......

As for my relationship.... I'm giving myself more time and see what I want to do. My family issues really pushed it back a bit. Can't wait for my Vancouver trip Round II at the end of this month! =) More time for myself to think over. There is one thing I'm worrying about though.... I hope my roomie/best friend support whatever decision I will make because it will effect his life somehow.

True love is really hard to find for sure..... but its the matter of how both feels about it instead of just one...... =x

Budget for the last two months really blew over for me. I spend more money than I made. Yikes! This moving to an apartment injured my piggie bank badly. She needs time to heal...... I can't really heal until after Vancouver though. =( I hope everything will be ok money wise. Money is something we can make back!! Oh, I'm planning to get a part-time job on the weekend to make a few extra bucks
too!

Things are looking a bit better now! Gotta be positive and push myself to go through these days. I'm sure something good is waiting for me sometime this year.

Steam holiday sale finally ended! I know it did lots of damages to lots of Goodjers piggy banks! hahaha. It is evil...... My game library shoot up x2... I received total of 10 games as gifts from the lovely boys and I bought myself 4 games. =) I have yet to try all of them... been stuck on a few old games lately.

So what are your new year resolutions? New year is just another reason for us to make up new goals! hahaha...... ehhh what the heck!

- Go down 10 lbs to 115lbs!
- Be nice to my dad despite what happened before - this is gonna be a hard one
- Improve my physical appearance
- Find a part-time job on the weekends
- Finish reading all the books I bought
- Go back to school in the fall as part-time
- Be friendlier......

Things I look forward to....

- Brother coming home!!!
- Dad being therapy-ed
- Vancouver trip
- PAX East!!!!

Small things......
- New steam games
- Shenger's bday party this weekend in DC
- getting my hair permed next weekend