I gotta say new years is one of those really sad or really happy holidays. Having something positive to look forward to vs. nothing new is happening. It's also one of those celebration that makes single people miss their ex's. Yikes!! Everyone needs love eh? =) (I got a few drunk texts myself during that night. tsk tsk....).
2011 gives me a neutral feeling. So much had happened in my life in the last few months.... it really makes me think hard once again what I really want in life. Ugh! So much uncertainty and emotion.... tragic events really change people. It had to be one of the hardest time in my life! (I sound so dramatic!! I'm blending into the girl world! Oh no!).
Just at the end of October, I had so much ambition to improve my life and self. I wanted to do so many things... then my family went down hill.... deep down for the last month or so. It's a bit ironic that this happens during the holidays. Much of my view changed.. and what I want to do.... However, things are looking pretty positive in the coming weeks! Last week my brother got transferred to a mental institute which killed me. That is the last place I want him to be transferred to... but just last night my mom told me the doctor said if he continues to "act like he is now", he will be released by the end of this week! =D and of course once he gets out, he will be treated with therapy and medication until he is normal again. I hope these events taught my parents and my brother something...... *sigh* I felt like I'm the only adult in the family.
At the same time, my dad started his therapy yesterday! =D I heard it went well. Lets hope his stubborn self realize what he has been doing to us as a family.......
As for my relationship.... I'm giving myself more time and see what I want to do. My family issues really pushed it back a bit. Can't wait for my Vancouver trip Round II at the end of this month! =) More time for myself to think over. There is one thing I'm worrying about though.... I hope my roomie/best friend support whatever decision I will make because it will effect his life somehow.True love is really hard to find for sure..... but its the matter of how both feels about it instead of just one...... =x
Budget for the last two months really blew over for me. I spend more money than I made. Yikes! This moving to an apartment injured my piggie bank badly. She needs time to heal...... I can't really heal until after Vancouver though. =( I hope everything will be ok money wise. Money is something we can make back!! Oh, I'm planning to get a part-time job on the weekend to make a few extra bucks
too!
Things are looking a bit better now! Gotta be positive and push myself to go through these days. I'm sure something good is waiting for me sometime this year.
Steam holiday sale finally ended! I know it did lots of damages to lots of Goodjers piggy banks! hahaha. It is evil...... My game library shoot up x2... I received total of 10 games as gifts from the lovely boys and I bought myself 4 games. =) I have yet to try all of them... been stuck on a few old games lately.
So what are your new year resolutions? New year is just another reason for us to make up new goals! hahaha...... ehhh what the heck!
- Go down 10 lbs to 115lbs!
- Be nice to my dad despite what happened before - this is gonna be a hard one
- Improve my physical appearance
- Find a part-time job on the weekends
- Finish reading all the books I bought
- Go back to school in the fall as part-time
- Be friendlier......
Things I look forward to....
- Brother coming home!!!
- Dad being therapy-ed
- Vancouver trip
- PAX East!!!!
Small things......
- New steam games
- Shenger's bday party this weekend in DC
- getting my hair permed next weekend
